First Post
22/02/2024
My site is held together poorly by tape and bandaids, and I wanted to have it be more presentable before I started making blog entries but I reallly want to write. One day I'll have a proper CSS file to reference back to, but atm it's all...individual styling. Copy and pasted. Quite unfortunate for the future me who has to clean this up.
//edit: I switched to Zonelets real quick, so I ended up not needing to do all of this!
So anyway, hi! Hello. First post, I don't really know what to say.
I'm Chrome. I draw a lot, write a lot ('cept I don't post them much). I wanted a space for myself, a hidey-hole for me to indulge in things I like. I've been told by my partner, lovingly, that I seem to enjoy reorganising the same information over and over. My Evernote, Obsidian, Toyhouse, Notion is all a testament to that. Neocities is just the biggest and most versatile.
...I don't really want to examine that too closely!!! Anyway, like a lot of other people, I'm on this platform to do fuck-all. Also, like a lot of other people, I am...tired lol. I miss the net where I was able to customise my youtube and deviantART page, I miss community spaces, the allowance to have a place of your own without all this corporate, 'professional' junk in the way. Social Media has become too businessy! Too cold! I'm suffering from an extremely bittersweet nostalgia surge so I'm massively coping by being here! --Something or another.
Also idk having like one website to just. Have everything? A place to journal, post art, writing, talk about my OCs without needing to separate my accounts...
I might just be missing old dA a lot lmao.
If there's one thing I'm not so sure about, it's community? I'm not too sure how people...talk to each other here. A part of me would like to hide forever and just build my little empire here, but! I do enjoy the social aspect of being online sometimes. I'll look into what I can do about that, maybe a chatbox or sth.
It doesn't help that I am at a time of my life where the dissonance from adulthood is very prevalent. It's the funny period of 'I feel too young to be in my mid-twenties' and having to be an adult anyway, which I've tried to navigate with grace and failed epicly at. Things are very day-to-day for me right now. So uh, massively coping is accurate.
Perhaps this will help me get closer to becoming a functioning human, just by talking it out. (lmao i wish. nice thought tho)
I would like to be more candid here, something I find difficult on my other accounts by virtue of how public it is. It's exhausting having to keep up an image; I don't think I'm faking anything maliciously when I'm 'on main', just that there's a certain decorum that's expected. I could get into it more but it's like, 1AM and I'm tired. (also idk a part of me wants to be mentally ill openly without an entire audience watching. I would at least like the illusion that no one is looking, so this site works for me!)
(off-tangent, i 100% wanted to start talking about being mentally ill first; the whole reason why i hashed out the blog structure was to do that)
(but i figured it would be kinda bad to start my first blog entry like that lmaoooooooo so (as if this is any better but! thought that counts yea?)
I don't know how to end this! I think I've fulfilled the 'first post' quota, I need to sleep.
Hi world, and good night! Looking forward to fucking around more here.